ADHD Guide for/by Artists, Day 1

Happy Earth Day everyone, we did it, we consumed less, voluntarily, in a coordinated fashion, because of the idea that it could really really help someone we don't know!

i'm also enjoying the breather (although i may look like i'm especially busy) and compared to how much i usually try to hide the fact that i don't know what i'm doing, this is niiice.

[image is of a doodle where the tip of the iceberg is anger, everything beneath the surface is grief, and it's all floating in the vast ocean of busyness. Now that i'm thinking about it, if that iceburg melts, we're all going to be really really busy.]

This is also what i know: i had just written a long intro into this blog, trying to connect Earth Day, my life story, and somehow segway into how i'm starting a Patreon page to give structure to an adhd/time-blindness/intention deficit disorder exploration, but then i remembered...

that i've been staring at the same 2 paragraphs for 5 hours while also simultaneously trying to navigate changes to my healthcare and also watching a Drag King show on Twitch... i'm pretty sure i'm not supposed to be doing a project like this all on my own.

[image shows a venn diagram of where to find multitasking, it's in that sweet spot between living and dying]

So if you think that an ADHD Guide for/by Artists for people who

a. struggle with the joys of being neurodivergent,
b. are wanting to add a QTBIPOC context into the mix, and/or
c.who also think that learning materials in the form of 2½ hour long lectures and 1" thick books are as cruel as the word Lisp,

then this is me reaching out saying as clear as i can: i could use more help, some encouragement, and most urgently of all, i probably could use someone to tell me when something is just 'good enough', and when it has the potential to be lighter, more expansive...

like how i want to raise funds to pay for the illustrators/designers/someones who can help pull off an interesting/holistic way to visualize some of the most complex ideas...

or raising enough funds to get this guide into the hands of younger people who may be struggling too; at a moment where they could really use something else to identify with other than a diagnosis/IEP/501.

[Image is of an imagined Public Service Announcement for when it becomes reported that smartphones are too addictive for the constant dopamine hits it creates. In the picture there's a landmine with lit up social media icons in the foreground on a bed with a sleeping person blurred in the background. . The text reads: "You wouldn't sleep with a land mine would you? Kick 'smart phones' out of the bedroom at night." and it looks to have been sponsored by [An accessible ADHD guide for/by Artists aka time-blindness, aka intention-deficit-disorder.]

i'm going to work on this a little bit everyday, and i'm giving myself until my birthday (May 5th) to make a rough draft that i'd be happy enough to go out into the world; seeking collaborators.

i can't promise that i'll always enjoy the rigor, or that it won't be mostly muddled, nor that i won't overwork myself (i don't have a choice in the matter anyway). But i'm going to be brave and wave a little flag for the project, and i don't have to try very hard at all to being curious about this subject, i'll be workin away until you feel like you can join me. For me it's always meant to be a slow parallel journey in examining my own inner landscape, and i think that i have a penchant for making things fun even if it's regimented, so here goes nothing:

I HAVE LOST MY JOB, I'M EXHAUSTED FROM FILLING OUT APPLICATIONS, I'M SUPPOSED TO BE MAKING ART. WHEN I DO MAKE ART, I'M PRETTY GOOD AT IT. THIS IS A PROJECT THAT HAS LONG BEEN IN THE MAKING (here, here, and here) SO IGNORE ANYTIME I SAY THAT I HAVE NO IDEA WHAT I'M DOING. PLEASE CONSIDER HOLDING ME ACCOUNTABLE BY SETTING UP A MICRO-DONATION. ALSO I'LL DO MY BEST TO MAKE FUN OF PATREON BECAUSE YES, EVERYTHING IS A JOKE TO ME. CAN YOU LEND ME $3? THANK YOU IN ADVANCE.



ok, now back to "Earth Day":

[Video shows Cedric Tai and Rachel Yezbick dancing fantastically to the Beastie Boys Song, Intergalactic with lots of arm swinging. They are both very exhausted by the end. There will be SO many easter eggs like this hidden throughout Patreon.]